so, there was this guy that I totally fell for. Come to find out he's not even remotely worthy of me. I mean, he actually asked "what did I do for him?"... are you for real? What it really was about was that he wanted his money to buy booze and cigs? He's actually a bit of a whore. Not all whore's sell themselves for money, he does it for booze, cigs and a place to sleep. I'm so better off with out him. I don't know if I can be his friend or not, but I do know that there is like a return of who I am. It's like a tidal wave that no one can stop.

Though the reasons of going to Texas were sad, this trip has completely revitalized me. I looked in the mirror this morning and found myself beautiful. I'm actually quite pretty. I plan to work on my hair when I get home. Thanks to my grandmother, i know now what to eat to help me loose weight. I have a rave to go to in October, and I want to rock my jeans by that time. Swimming 4 out 7 days and Akido should also help with that. People, and I think he did, mistook my silence for me having nothing to say... I always have something to say, i just won't always share it. I was so misunderstood by him. lol.

I'm also rocking 14 units, while working at school and hopefully i'll be getting a job with my friends. I'm going to get a car that will help. I've got so much that's going to happen when I get home. he's such an idiot. I had all this in the works a few months ago but according to his rationale, I was just being too lazy. I'm sure he's going to take credit for my sudden activity. He can all he likes, it's simply not true.

I'm going to be reconnecting with my old friends. I'm going to a rave in October. I'm going to start to going out dancing regularly. Seriously, being single is going to be awesome.

So, here I am, healing from a broken heart. I'll miss him in so many ways, but he's just a kid. The heat has scorched me, forged me. the water has rejuvenated me. I'm also writing, and drawing.

I'm so gonna rock it.